This Has Me Pissed (A Brandon Harmonti Blog)

  I Fucking HATE The Left-Right Paradigm     So one of the things I do in my free time (that is totally unhealthy for me - and I perhaps should stop doing so I can preserve whatever mental sanity I have left) is to watch what is known as Breadtube.     I have this theory that if you hooked someone's brain up to one of those machines that has wires coming out of it - and scientists can peak directly into your brain - sort of like a lie detector test - and judge what makes you feel either 1.happy or 2.stressed.  I always wonder what would happen if they yanked some asshole off the street - and asked him - are you into politics? and if he says no - hook him up to the machine. Then - what you would do - is proceed to show him videos of right wing political commentators - and then left wing. The scientists could look at the screen and observe (and take note) of whether his brain get stressed when looking at either 1. The Left or 2. The right.     Also.. I'm pretty sure that if that

  The Youtube Journey Continues Alright, So...  I only have a few minutes to write this as hastily as I possibly can - because House Of The Dragon comes on in about 15 minutes. It's the series finale for season one. Pretty excited.  Anyways here comes some verbal diarrhea that I'm gonna write out quickly. 1. I'm pretty sure noone reads this blog - and not gonna lie - I kinda like it that way. Thus far - it feels good to write randomly - and to noone. The only people that will ever read this blog are the rare few who click my description box and scroll all the way  to the bottom - and inevitably clicking - leading them here.  So - When you start a youtube channel - there's a lot of ' baggage' that comes along with it. The first being that your life suddenly doesn't feel as private anymore.  Another example of the baggage is that sometimes you say something - whether intentionally or unintentionally - that's gonna - lets face it - piss some people off.  So

     So...... This "written style" blog thing I'm doing has mostly lied dormant - I think I made a post 2 months ago? My procrastinating mind is telling me to get back into it. Afterall: it's fun to right. And if there's anything I'm good at: it's writing very fast.  So I attended my first "Divine Liturgy" last week. I got my crazy uncle to come with me - mainly because I have social anxiety: and was afraid to walk into a church filled with people I don't know. If you have social anxiety: the thought of doing that is literal torture.     So we went. We woke up bright and early - and I rushed around attempting to find any rendition of what could pass as "church clothes" I found an old pair of damp khaki pants that had some sort of fruit juice stain on it. I found some brown shoes - but the sole things at the bottom were half hanging off. I put on an uncomfortable button up shirt that I sometimes where with my 1960s mad men suit: and

At this point sobriety feels bleak, difficult, and also unattainable. [also i'm starting a blog] By Brandon Harmonti     Over the years one of my favorite pastimes has been realizing I'm about to go through an immediate and intense withdrawal, promptly going on youtube, and for the next hour or so watching videos of people who document a daily peak inside their withdrawal symptoms.      I've always considered it one of the most helpful things on youtube. The comments below the video are often very supportive, and filled with people who are doing exactly what the uploader is doing: attempting to get clean with next-to-nothing in regards to supplements that will help ease their pain. Nonetheless, youtube is continually censoring and blacklisting channels that do so - so there's that.      I'm gonna give it to you straight: I need to get sober. It's not even for mental reasons anymore. It's beginning to become physical - because a few months ago - my foot swell