This Has Me Pissed (A Brandon Harmonti Blog)

  So… this sucks - and has to change.  I’m writing this on my phone in a bunk bed at a sober retreat. I think I realize this every time I do adderall - but / it’s fun while it lasts and it’s miserable to come down off of.  Every. Single. Time. Even if I get work done and have social interactions where I seem smart, confident, and cool - the next day I still hate myself - because that wasn’t really me. I’m actually going to rehab Monday. My YouTube audience doesn’t know yet.  I’m such an addict that I literally bought adderall and klonopin before hanging out with people in AA.  I hate this. People are waking up -no can hear them. My shoulders tense up every time I hear a noise.  This has to end. I’m not even going to make this a good blog post. I can not do this anymore. Rehab please save me. 

  I Fucking HATE The Left-Right Paradigm     So one of the things I do in my free time (that is totally unhealthy for me - and I perhaps should stop doing so I can preserve whatever mental sanity I have left) is to watch what is known as Breadtube.     I have this theory that if you hooked someone's brain up to one of those machines that has wires coming out of it - and scientists can peak directly into your brain - sort of like a lie detector test - and judge what makes you feel either 1.happy or 2.stressed.  I always wonder what would happen if they yanked some asshole off the street - and asked him - are you into politics? and if he says no - hook him up to the machine. Then - what you would do - is proceed to show him videos of right wing political commentators - and then left wing. The scientists could look at the screen and observe (and take note) of whether his brain get stressed when looking at either 1. The Left or 2. The right.     Also.. I'm pretty sure that if that