This Has Me Pissed (A Brandon Harmonti Blog)

At this point sobriety feels bleak, difficult, and also unattainable. [also i'm starting a blog] By Brandon Harmonti     Over the years one of my favorite pastimes has been realizing I'm about to go through an immediate and intense withdrawal, promptly going on youtube, and for the next hour or so watching videos of people who document a daily peak inside their withdrawal symptoms.      I've always considered it one of the most helpful things on youtube. The comments below the video are often very supportive, and filled with people who are doing exactly what the uploader is doing: attempting to get clean with next-to-nothing in regards to supplements that will help ease their pain. Nonetheless, youtube is continually censoring and blacklisting channels that do so - so there's that.      I'm gonna give it to you straight: I need to get sober. It's not even for mental reasons anymore. It's beginning to become physical - because a few months ago - my foot swell